Fears~

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Years are passing..we never notice the difference between today and yesterday and guess for tomorrow can be expected too..and while all that happens,everything DOES change!

It’s as if something magical happening!! I want something that never change,someone will keep smiling at me the same way everyday,someone I won’t just get used to them being there..No,I want to enjoy the beauty of waking up everyday while seeing them there.

why Must life change everything without us noticing that?? I’ve lost people and I miss them a lot,I think about others in the way of “What if I lost them too” is there a way we can keep them forever? …is it better to be lonely than suffering the loss of someone loved!…I don’t like change though I love trying new things,does this make me crazy?…I don’t know and to be honest,I don’t want to know..I’ll pray,I’ll just pray to God..the only one I’m sure will always be there…the only one the more I pray,the beauty of his company is enjoyable everyday..

Dear God, I know you understand me,I know you are there for me, sometimes you even speak to me through things..I’m sorry that sometimes I feel afraid and other times I worry..I’m sorry because I know,I have to trust you more..but My heart is so weak,keeps thinking and thinking and hurting and pain…something want to shake my trust in you but I promise,I’ll do my best to not listen to that and I’ll do my best to improve…

I love you,dear God ..thank you for being there always and thank you for never changing..Thank you for loving me more than anyone else.

Yours Truly,
Your faithful weak creature ❤

White seagulls,Blue shore~

O,Seagulls..dear seagulls..fly away in the far horizon

Like a white sail drawn with the newly born dawn

A beautiful blue shore with a stubborn high waves

Blocks the enemies,protects us..Not caring for any threats

Come on,Come on,My dear Seagulls

Fly away again,have no fear~

Complication

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It’s weird when you make your decision about something then find your heart doing another!

When you decide to live your life by your own..love comes and crashes all your hopes

Why is it when you don’t want it,you find it and when you want it,no clue!

fighting the desire to love someone only makes things worse..you find yourself lost between two choices the best of them,bitter!

Two personas of one person in a war..Yes,No..Yes,No,Yes,No..My choice! that’s silly..My pride,Forget it,no harm…Why?,Why not?…only makes things worse that you can’t control…lay down on your back,stare to the ceiling while the room’s window open..let the breeze gently rubs your face and breathe…It’s not the end of the world there~

Nightfall~

When night falls,everything becomes so silent..

To make you listen..to the scream inside of you,

Your heart trying to call your mind,but the line is busy,all the time

Lots of questions wandering without directions,

Lots of feelings gathering from everywhere

why is it when night falls,everything becomes crueler?

Is it the loneliness or…. the fear of loneliness ?

why do we fear something that only exists in our heads?

Silence of the night gives birth to many new questions,while we never answered the old

And we will always wish to just close our eyes and sleep peacefully

Once upon a time in the land of dreams~